Praise

It seems as though I decided to throw myself a great big pity party a month ago and it is all the rage, for me that is. This party, which consists of lethargic periods of time where I do nothing but sit and stare at my children, or the t.v., or a book that I'm not really reading. There is food in abundance at this party, most of which contain too much sugar and fat. Finally, there is the late night dances where I toss and turn, willing myself to stay awake so that I don't have to dream. The party is decorated with a thick fog that I seem to swim through on a daily basis.
I'm not sure how normal people grieve the loss of a loved one, but I am pretty sure that I am not doing a great job of it. My body seems to be shutting down on me due in part to this endless pity party that I am throwing for myself. I have a fractured foot, a cold that will not seem to go away, and I am an "Ill Bill" twelve of the twenty four hours a day.
On Saturday I woke up in a fog, as usual, with my first thoughts being of my mom. Connor, my peristent 3 year old had woken me up at his usual wake up time of 6:30 a.m.. As I walked down the hall, holding him in my arms, and descended the stairs, with his sweet head on my shoulder the Doxology popped into my mind.

Praise God, from Whom all blessings flow;
Praise Him, all creatures here below;
Praise Him above, ye Heavenly Host;
Praise Father, Son, and Holy Ghost. Amen

Where in the world had these words come from? It was then that I realized that instead of having pity for myself, I needed to be praising God for the blessings that I still had with me. One of which is my sweet children, both Tucker and Connor are the most precious blessings God could ever have sent me.
Pity comes from the enemy, Praise from the Holy Spirit. If we let ourselves fall into a state of despair, we are giving into the enemy. I for one am shutting down this stupid party. It has cost me too much precious time as it is. From this day forward, I will promote a fun filled, lift the roof, sing like I'm in the shower, Praise party!! Anyone is invited, and we can all imbibe in our blessings together!!

In His hands,
April